This is Me Now

This is the middle ground for me. Tell me I'm not the only one that has ever been at this moment in life, where you wonder "is this where I'm supposed to be right now?"
Just starting this journey of blogging, hoping maybe, it will give me guidance in this adventure.

If you have just joined my journey........I'm Candace, mom of 2 girls biologically and one day, maybe step-mom of 2 boys, if we can ever get a hang of what we're doing long enough to make a commitment.
If you have just joined my upside journey.............divorced after 14 years, married when I was 17 (super mistake- didn't know who I was and where I was going)..........had the incredible joy of being a mom of 2 girls that I just adore, although they would tell you I am quite the crab, taking on too much and stressing myself out!
If you have just joined my crazy, sick journey............living with my boyfriend (don't know if I am right for his path) and his 2 boys that have graciously allowed me to be a part of their life after they have lost their mom.........I am not even up to par in this role, doubting everything I say or do, hoping I do not scar them for the rest of their life and dreadfully accepting that their family does not accept the fact that I'm white and they're black.........another issue for another day.

So why start blogging? To give some sense to the chaos under which I live and the sometimes overwhelming feeling of being pulled in so many directions that all I can do is write...........